My next chemotherapy session is on 25th February. My Vicar will be conducting communion for me and family on 21st February, Thursday.
I have to confess that I am getting more scared of chemotherapy as some of the side-effects immediately after the chemotherapy are getting stronger. Up till now, my fingers and toes are still a little numbed and tinkling. The numbness in the tongue only disappeared last week. Although the appetite is good and I can keep the food down but I was eating less and for the few days after the last chemotherapy I lost about half a kilograms but I had since gained this weight back.
The last few days, the blood sugar for some reason was a little difficult to manage and I had a big scare a few hours ago when the blood sugar level went down to 4.0 and basically I was in the hypoglycemic state and I was having cold sweat and trembling and forcing myself not to go to sleep. Had to down some sweet pastry to get some sugar into the system but I may have overdone it.
I may be scared but I have to remain strong not just for myself but for Josie and Nathan and my dependence on God has not waivered but I have to constantly remind myself of His Goodness, Mercy and Grace. This was why I was going through some of my old posts yesterday.
Yesterday I posed the hymn “How Great Thou Art” which was one the songs used my wedding. For these period though, as far as songs or hymns are concerned, I cling to “Blessed Assurance” where it says “Perfect submission all is at rest, I in my Savior am happy and blest; Watching and waiting, looking above, Filled with His goodness, lost in His love.”
Yes, I am happy and blest to be in Jesus.
In God We Trust.
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