Radiotherapy is over. I kind of have a strange feeling because after 6 weeks of radiotherapy, I had gotten used to the routine of waking up early, getting prepared to go and beat the morning school traffic, go for breakfast and head to NUH. I just asked Josie what we are going to do tomorrow and I guess for her it was a relieved too of not having to wake up early anymore and she just gave a simple reply “I’ll send Nathan to school tomorrow”
I am still sort of recovering from the effects of radiotherapy and the sequence are generally great in the morning, slowing down in the afternoon, not so great in the evening and trying not to think too much about the discomfort before bed. I got craving for the sweet stuff but obviously I can’t indulge and for someone who used to love to eat, the smell of food sometime turns me off. Still got to eat and so nowadays, my diet is kind of boring as it usually comprises the same things that don’t turn me off.
In the last 2 days, honestly, I wasn’t thinking much about God and I feel guilty about it. Had wanted to go to church this morning but because I had an awful night last night, I had decided then not to go to church this morning. Anyway, Josie was still coughing.
I thought I’ll post something tonight and I guess since I am writing this post, I could not really “run away” from God and I remembered a programme on National Geographic Channel recently about the Yakuza (Japanese Gangsters). In it, there was a Yakuza member who was jailed for a petty crime and while in jail found God and when he was released, sought permission from his “Boss” to quit the gang. To cut a long story short, his boss allowed him to go and he is now a pastor of a small Baptist Church. In his church, there was also a young former yakuza member and he said something that is really at the core of Christian belief. He said “You cannot be loyal to 2 bosses. Either you are loyal to God or not”. There is nothing more I would like to add and just leave you with this to think about.
In God We Trust and in Christ alone my hope is found.
Hebrews 11:1
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