Post-Chemotherapy Cycle #05 Comment #03

Today, I’m more or less back to normal.  In other, not so tired and although it is 1-2 days later than usual for the recovery, it is a recovery none the less and thank God for it.

My only concern now is for the body to recover as fast as possible before the next cycle on this coming Wednesday.  This time around though, I have one less day to recover because the last cycle started on Thursday instead of Wednesday.  The Oncologist wanted actually to continue with starting on Thursday moving forward but it will be difficult to manage because I will then need to go back to TTSH on Saturday instead of Friday to have the pump removed and it is usually at about 1-2 pm and Clinic would be closed.  So I stuck to Wednesday.

There's tingling feelings in the fingers and tongue is numbed and some food taste metallic. The taste buds are also a little off and cannot taste sweet and salty as well as usual.  Spices (chilies and peppers) are somehow is different and is accentuated and food with spices taste “stronger” but I liked it though.

Although I am not physically active in the worship ministry, I am still helping on the back end with lyrics and chords sheets.  During the last communion that that was conducted for me before the Chemotherapy, the song “In Christ Alone” was sung and I had blogged about it.  This week, I was informed by the worship leader that this song will be used during communion and I was quite touch because she mentioned that she read my blog about it and was touched.

If I can repeat, verse 4 of the song is:

No guilt in life, no fear in death,
This is the pow’r of Christ in me;
From life's first cry to final breath,
Jesus commands my destiny.

No pow’r of hell, no scheme of man,
Can ever pluck me from His hand;
Till He returns or calls me home,
Here in the pow’r of Christ I'll stand!

The entire verse 4 is a summary of all that I had posted so far in my blog; of my dependency in God, that in Him is stand, trusting Him in every way.

Particular significance is the line “From life's first cry to final breath, Jesus commands my destiny.” This line speaks exactly of my personal proclamation of God’s sovereignty, that Jesus commands my destiny and hence there is no fear, not even death.

He is my all in all and truly I say that In Him I Trust.