Pre-Chemotherapy Cycle #10 Comment #05

I had gone to TTSH for my pre-chemotherapy blood test on Saturday, 2nd March at around 9:00am and received a call on the same day at 11:00am to say that I can proceed with my chemotherapy on Monday, 4 March.

For proceeding with the chemotherapy, the apprehension is gone and I look forward to observing how the body reacts to the 10^th Chemotherapy and reporting to my Oncologist on 1^st April. This will help determine the next course of action as in either continuing with chemotherapy, resting for a long period before resuming chemotherapy or moving straight to Radiation-therapy. However, I still have some apprehension as to how I will handle this coming therapy cycle as my body is not tolerating nor recovering from the effects of the chemotherapy drugs as well or as fast as when I first started my therapy.

In any case and in either ways, regardless of looking at this coming therapy cycle positively or with apprehension, I lift it up to God as I had quoted Brother Lawrence in my previous blog and also from Philippians (that is topic for another blog post).

“God often allows us to suffer somewhat in order to purify our souls, and so bring us nearer to Him. My own experience is such that I cannot understand how a soul that lives with God and desires only Him can be capable of misery. ”

(Referencing to my blog entry “Encouragement and the meaning of Life” posted on 03 February 2013)

Philippians 3:8-20 (NASB)

⁸ More than that, I count all things to be loss in view of the surpassing value of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord, for whom I have suffered the loss of all things, and count them but rubbish so that I may gain Christ, ⁹ and may be found in Him, not having a righteousness of my own derived from the Law, but that which is through faith in Christ, the righteousness which comes from God on the basis of faith,
¹⁰ that I may know Him and the power of His resurrection and the fellowship of His sufferings, being conformed to His death; ¹¹in order that I may attain to the resurrection from the dead.
¹² Not that I have already obtained it or have already become perfect, but I press on so that I may lay hold of that for which also I was laid hold of by Christ Jesus. ¹³ Brethren, I do not regard myself as having laid hold of it yet; but one thing I do: forgetting what lies behind and reaching forward to what lies ahead,
¹⁴ I press on toward the goal for the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus. ¹⁵ Let us therefore, as many as are perfect, have this attitude; and if in anything you have a different attitude, God will reveal that also to you; ¹⁶ however, let us keep living by that same standard to which we have attained.

In God We Trust.