Radiotherapy: Pre-therapy #03

I went to TTSH for my blood test yesterday. The results should be out by now and I am just waiting for my Oncologist to contact me concerning my chemotherapy in the coming week. Supposed to have my chemotherapy together with radiotherapy but I am not sure how the arrangement is supposed to be done. In any case, whether I can proceed with my chemotherapy is very much dependent on my blood tests result particularly my pancreatic and liver function. Previously, primary concern was my platelet count but now because the tumor is pressing against the liver, the results pertaining to my pancreatic and liver functions are also of concern. The wait for the call from my Oncologist is “killing” me (not literally).

I am jaundice due to obstruction of the bile duct. You can see from the pic the yellowing of my eyes. Easier to cope now that I know what I have to do. I spent about an hour this morning on a bench near my place just to sun myself and to help clear the jaundice.

Food is also retained in the stomach due to obstruction of the stomach outlet. This is the most comfortable part of my condition now as there is a feeling for bloatedness and my stomach is churning and having spasm in trying to push the food out. I had to force myself to vomit several times a day just to clear the retained food.  During the night, not only does this disturb my sleep, it disturbed Josie’s sleep as well as she is very concerned about me. This morning, at about 4am, I was trying to vomit and she knew about it from the noise and got ready a cup of warm water and waited for me to come out of the toilet. So touching and conscientious and the warm water really helped. Also easier to cope now that I sleep on an inclined position so that there will not be any reflux of the stomach content into the throat.  I managed to have a relatively good night rest this morning.

It is just a matter of resting and waiting. The waiting is the part that is agitating me as I wish that things can move along quickly. Hit the tumor and hit it hard. I can and will bear the side-effects from the therapies as God will give me the grace to bear it.

In God We Trust

Hebrew 11:1