"My Wished Fulfilled"

'My Wished Fulfilled'. That was the title of an article in The New Paper today, page 13. It is the story of Pastor Lau who had undergone a concurrent heart and liver transplant and passed away on Palm Sunday, 2 days ago.

The poignant thing for me about this article is the prayer of the Pastor's son who is 10 years old and to quote "... he would tell God that if it was better to take his father home "where there's no more suffering, He should do so." The daughter also said that "For him, suffering had never been an issue but finally his heart gave out. It was clearly God's will,.."

I thought of Nathan and remembered my desire for 21 years from the Lord. I think about suffering and it was also not an issue but truth be told, it is an issue. For the first time in my journey, there was persistent pain and discomfort. I would not say that it is “suffering” but it could be a foretaste of what the suffering might be and it is absolutely not pleasant. I refuse to accept the concept of misery because in God there is the assurance of grace and mercy but last night for the first time in a while I had pray directly for healing but I still cling on to the sovereign will of God and I commit my wellbeing to Him in the similarly ways like Pastor Lau's family, they have committed his life to God's will.

My line of thoughts is not in tune generally with the mainstream and some pastors, preachers or evangelists where they claim that healing is in God's intrinsic will and that we can “change” God's mind and uses Scripture where God seem to have “turned around” or again expound the concept of “allowed”. I am not saying that they are wrong as I almost had an argument last week with someone who insist that healing is in God's plan and that we can “change” God's mind not comprehending in their mind that I do believe in healing but that I also places God's sovereign will preeminently and thus my prayer is for the manifestation for God's will first and foremost before I pray for healing.

Last night's prayer is proof of that and I do believe that God will heal but I do not know the extent of that healing because as it is God had already granted me an extension on my life using medical science and for that I deeply grateful.

My brother- in-law who is also Pastor was here and he had come to understand and see my faith and also my position on God's will. He conducted communion for me and I am so blessed by it and I hope for him too.

In God We Trust
Hebrew 11:1