a) Change one of my medical appointment
b) Get an extra copy of my inpatient bill
c) Change monies for the Chinese New Year
d) Brought some diabetic biscuit at a shop for diabetics
e) Top up some grocery at NTUC.
Got home at about 3:30pm and was so tired that I slept at about 4pm and woke up at about 5pm and that was when the lethargy really hit. Don’t really have strength to do any more heavy works. Much better now but a little weak and you will probably be able to hear it in my voice if you are talking to me.
With each cycle, things are looking up in terms of the prognosis but the body is also getting weaker in terms of tolerating the side effects but with God’s help, I persevered and God had helped me through. I try as far as possible to write positive things and to help encourage those that read my blog, to find strength in God, in Jesus, to know that He will carry us in the darkness moments of our lives and He never fails.
I’d sent 2 songs to the Worship Leaders in Church and one of them replied with a song by Matt Redman, Jason Ingram & Tim Wanstall by the title of “Never Once” and the chorus goes like this:
Never once did we ever walk alone,
Never once did You leave us on our own.
You are faithful, God, You are faithful.
Although I had replied that the words does not convey my feeling strong enough as He is far more to me than the words in this particularly song but at this particular moment, it does make sense.
Let’s just say that certain happened today that really made both me and Josie despaired and especially for me, I questioned whether I really want to live longer. It is not a good thought especially since God had been so good to me, Josie and Nathan. It is probably escapism but sometime it is the only thought that can bring some relieved as in there is an “escape” route. BUT and I say BUT that is not the thought that God would want me to think. He is gracious and will not let me bear beyond what I can tolerate.
He is Good all the time and In Him We Trust
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